17th of April

Dear Vincent,

Today, you asked me to delete this blog. I wanted to.
But I already invested too much feelings here.
I know you won't read this anymore. Maybe it's my time to write again.
I'm not writing now because you said so. I'm writing because I need to let it all out.

April is the start of Spring here in Korea. I've started going to the park to exercise.
You've been very busy lately that you go home in the morning.
I had more time for myself, but we got less time together.
I always cry when I wake up 2 or 3am and see that you were online at 12am.
I really long for you.

Sometimes, I try sleeping at 7pm to 9pm just to make sure that I'm awake at 12am to catch you.
I will never complain because I love what I'm doing. And I know, I hope that you won't slap into my face that you took a different shift for me.

This month, I've watched the Korean drama "Descendants of the Sun." I told you that Song Joong Ki is my crush. LOL. Not really love, you're the only handsome guy in my eyes! Btw, that Korean drama helped me stayed awake for a couple of days so I can catch you. ;)

I've been touring around Seoul and searching for places with Cherry Blossoms. I'm really amazed, love. In all those places I've been, I keep on saying, "This will be more beautiful if you are here."
I really look forward meeting you babe.

Good thing, Anne stayed in my place for a week. I was able to have a photographer hihi. I apologize in the future because I know that I'll ask you to take a picture of me countless times.

I can feel that you trust me more now. Thanks for allowing me to attend the birthday party of Cathy. Thanks for believing in me. Thank you for your trust love.

I guess you won't be able to read this anymore. I'll publish it anyway.

Love,
Karla